Today hasn't been a good day. I woke up missing Ethan so bad. Then I had to ask Grant not to jump on the couch, 2 seconds later he jumps and gets hurt. While tending to him Gavin gets into Visken's water. While cleaning up that Visken poops on the floor. While cleaning that up Grant pees on the couch. While dealing with that Gavin hits his head. This cycle continues. Ugh. I decide to get in the shower. A hot shower and restart to the day. Except that the shower was ice cold. Really? I haven't had a shower in 2 days and it is ice cold. I finally get all of us dressed and outside, only for it to start pouring the minute the garage door opened. I sat on the floor of the garage and cried. I just wanted to go back inside and climb in bed. Then Grant stepped outside and started splashing in the puddles. "Jump with me Mommy!". And Grant and Gavin squealed in delight.
Yup, I still have crummy days. Days when I miss Ethan more than I can ever put into words. Days where my patience is tested and I am physically and emotionally exhausted. But that is the point, that is life. We can always go back to bed, wait for the storm to pass. Or we can learn to dance in the rain. I am thankful that my boys are teaching me to "splash" in the rain.
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